Notes:
"This is a song from the dream images. I find it weird
to sing because it makes me feel sad, but I also feel that it's
one that I have to sing. Its a song of having intense dreams
and wanting to wake up from them in your real life, as opposed
to a deluded dream world where no one's connecting. The "Oh
Mom" lines aren't specifically about birth. But probably
there have been many times in my life when I felt that I was
the child reassuring my mother that everything would be fine.
I put the quote marks around "clean quilted heart"
because the phrase was so clear in the dream."
"The Open Hand Book - Notes on her
New Album", Musician, 1991, also published in Language
and in the Limited Edition of 99.9F° (http://www.vega.net/handbook.htm)
transcribed by Eric Szczerbinski
Suzanne explaing
the line "Oh Mom":
"Not really. In fact, I wondered what she thought of it.
We never really talked about it. That's kind of a strange song.
I started writing it about eight years ago. It was something
I found in one of my notebooks. "Oh Mom, the dreams are
not so bad..." And I couldn't figure out what the rest
of it should be, so I just left it there. And eight years later
I had this thing of "there's so much to do and I'm tired
of sleeping." And suddenly all of the dream images came
out. It all gelled, all of a sudden. It's kind of to my mom,
but not really. If she asked what it was about, I couldn't tell
her."
[...]
"The image in my mind is that of a child is sleeping. She's
having a bad dream. She's probably said something in her sleep,
or shouted, and the mother comes. The child wakes up and says,
"I'm fine, you can go back to bed." The child is comforting
the mother. I'm tired of sleeping anyway, I was thinking of
getting up, don't worry, go back to bed. But then, of course,
the dream images that the child is having are terrifying. The
bird on the string. But there's this constant need to comfort
the mother. It's weird. It relates to my life. All the characters
in the song relate to my life in some way. I think the kids
of the church steps are my brothers and sisters. But that gets
terribly Psych 103. But it almost doesn't matter. What matters
more is the feeling of the song."
Interview with Paul Zollo in Song Talk, Vol. 2, #17, Spring 1992, also published in "Language", 5:1 August 1992, (http://www.vega.net/songtal2.htm) trancription by Steve Zwanger
Suzanne explaing
the lines "The kids are playing in pennies / They're up
to their knees in money / In the dirt of the churchyard steps":
"That's an image I saw in a dream. For a long time when
I sang that song, I would feel like crying. It took about a
year to be able to sing it and not want to cry."
[...]
"I think the line in the dream was "the children are
begging for God." And there's a double meaning to that.
One is that they're begging for money for God. Like alms for
the church. And I'm not Catholic or Christian. I don't go to
church. So I don't understand why I would have that dream. But
on the other hand "the children are begging for God"
is asking for salvation."
[...]
"It seemed to me that it was me and my brothers and sisters
playing on the steps of this church. My stepfather's father
was a minister, and that might have something to do with it.
It's all very dense, personal stuff. I can't give you a better
answer than that."
Interview with Paul Zollo in Song Talk, Vol. 2, #17, Spring 1992, also published in "Language", 5:1 August 1992, (http://www.vega.net/songtal2.htm) trancription by Steve Zwanger
Suzanne based Tired of Sleeping upon notes
from a notebook eight years before she wrote this song (Ed.).